Confessions of a Bicultural Mom
This past year has been busier than ever and I’ve felt guilty too many times about living in the Midwest and about not immersing our daughter enough into Mexican culture. It’s been hard. We’re far away from our family and friends who influence our Latino roots most and we haven’t always done enough to connect in this community for various reasons.
This past holiday I saw a lot of other parents chatting about getting together with their families and cooking up traditional Latino foods or visiting with their abuelos, tías and cousins. I have to admit I’m a little envious and also a little disappointed in myself. For all I’ve done to keep my daughter’s life full of Mexican influences, moving away from our friends and familia has felt like the worst decision I’ve ever made. Slowly I see bits of our heritage slipping away.
It’s been on my mind a lot these days and I often wonder what we could have done differently or how we can possibly afford to go back. Unfortunately, Michigan doesn’t exactly have the best economy these days, so that feels like a virtual impossibility.
I’ve talked about it numerous times here in the last year that hubby and I want to move back to Michigan to be near our families, or venture off to Texas or Mexico, near our primos, to immerse our daughter in all things Mexican. We’ve even talked about Spain, Peru, California or Chicago in order to have more access to Spanish. Ultimately we’re still unsure about what the best move is for our family, but we know that it needs to happen soon…or everything might just slip away from us.
I’m sure there are other parents out there who have these same worries. This is just one confession from one mom who worries about how to keep our culture alive. No matter what I do, it just doesn’t feel like enough here. It’s a lot of work and it doesn’t come easily. If we lived in a region where Spanish language and Mexican culture were more prominent, it could be a more dominant part of our life, like it was in Michigan. Or maybe moving back to Michigan IS the answer?
Qué piensas? What would you do?
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